Time to Confess!

A new year equals new confessions right? Okay, I will be the first to confess: I get envious of others sometimes. I know it’s a little random, but it’s true. And no, it‘s not that I am unhappy for others, or unhappy with my own life. Sometimes, I just see things that others may have, and I kind of want it too. Is that wrong of me? Tonight, I want to discuss the unspoken word “envy!”

My girlfriends always provide me the best inspiration for LOV (in a positive way of course lol). During a recent conversation with my girlfriend we discussed Facebook. I told her that I was thinking about taking some time off of the site because I was getting caught up in the doings of others. Of course she asked me what I meant, and at first I kind of shied away from answering. How could I tell her that this very confident woman becomes envious of others at times? For most women, the confession of being ‘jealous’ or ‘envious’ of another at any point in your life is a NO-NO!

I confessed to her that after seeing the pictures or statuses of some of the people on my friend’s list I found myself yearning for what they had. For example, some of my ‘friends’ on my friends list post pictures of their fancy vacations spots or exquisite dinners out 2-3 times a week. Like I told my friend, I am truly happy for my friends and family when they get to experience different things in their lives. But when clicking through their pictures, I can’t but help escape this devilish voice, “I wish I could spend 7 nights, six days in San Juan, or I probably won’t be able to afford Ruth’s Chris until my 5^th year anniversary!” I must say though, (with great enthusiasm) that this voice does not stay long at all. Can you guess what voice drowns out the devilish one? Well, yes it’s my Savior not speaking to me, but smacking me upside my big head. HE reminds me that HE gave me the ultimate gift of a lifetime: the gift of salvation!

It is so easy to get caught up in the limelight of the world. We see what the world offers and it appears as if everyone is having a good time without us. What make matters worse is that our flesh is prone to envy; an attribute of sin. Scripture states, “Do ye think that the scripture saith in vain, the spirit that dwelleth in us lusteth to envy” (Jas 4:5). But the more I reflect back to the time when I was in the world, the more I remember how unstable my thinking was. And if I am being honest, I choose to forfeit what the world has to offer me. I’d rather be broke and have the peace of mind that only GOD provides, versus a month’s long vacation in Hawaii any day!

We will always see what others have and want it. Chances are some girlfriend of yours got the new IPHONE or purse you wanted for Christmas. It’s okay. But the problem arises when our sinful human nature perverts into envy, and we stop celebrating the blessings of our loved ones, and become locked in our own selfishness. What I will continue to remember is that GOD blesses us individually. HE wouldn’t be GOD if he blessed everyone the same. The next time you’re feeling envious, pray and celebrate with those who have “what you think you want.” More importantly, thank GOD for what you already have.

Good Night,

KPA

Once raised by a Virtuous single mother, I am now a strong Virtuous Fashionista, who admits to being envious of others at times, who knows my worth, with a calming peace, who gives thanks daily, who wants to be a GODLY example to others, who is able to forgive my enemies, who has high expectations of me, who has been created in GOD’s own image, who lovingly submits to my spouse, who understands GOD's love, has an intimate relationship with GOD, supports Breast Cancer Awareness, with a family who honors me, Virtuous friends who love me, and with a giving spirit.