I Love You

"But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore; ye are of more value than many sparrows." (Luk 12:7).

Have you ever jumped out of the bed early in the am because you feel like your bladder is getting ready to explode under you? Well, it happened to me this morning. Instead of running to the bathroom, I quickly tiptoed through the hallway so I would not wake the boys (who were sleeping in due to a long day yesterday). Still wearing my pajamas, head scarf, and morning breath, I made it to the bathroom and exhaled. After washing my hands, I stood and took a hard look at myself early in the am. Now this is rare for me. My mornings usually consist of me speeding through brushing my teeth, washing my face, applying make-up (if I’m lucky) and managing to put my hair in a pony tail. Most mornings, (well days to be exact) I am consumed with tending to my boy’s every need.

So this morning was special. I stood in my bathroom mirror just looking at myself; flaws and all. No babies calling my name, just the sound of raindrops as they lighting tiptoed across the skylight in my bathroom. I still had my hair wrapped in my silk scarf and just decided to take in this face that GOD gave me. It was clean and healthy. No make-up, just cleanser and water. I admired my wide eyes; my long eye lashes, my long neck, and even noticed that my ears are really tiny. (Lord why am I sharing this? lol). Then I took off my scarf and let my hair fall below my shoulders. I ran my fingers through my long locks and admired my natural hair that was straight on one side but had dents on the other (because of the way in which I wrapped my hair). I just smiled. At that moment, I just loved me. I whispered to the mirror, “I love you inside and out. You are stronger than you know.”

Now, let s be clear. I truly don’t consider myself conceited or believe that I am more gorgeous than the next woman. I mean of course, I have those moments where I stand in a full-length mirror admiring my new heels, or when I’m all dressed up. (I think we all do that)! But this wasn’t one of those getting cute moments. This was different. While I stood looking at me, I thought about how grateful to God I was for the gift of life, health, and his desire to create me. I also thanked Him for how much He has changed me in the last few years: physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I am growing right before my eyes, and I wouldn’t change me for the world. I closed my eyes, and thanked Him for truly loving me even during the times when I didn’t love myself. (Tearing up) I am only here because He has allowed me to be.

Ladies, I had no idea telling myself “I love you” would bring about such elation. But I realized by saying I love you to me, I am saying it to what God has done in me. While it was my parents who came together to create me, it was God who provided me to them. He is my ultimate Creator and he resides within me. When was the last time you looked in the mirror and said “I truly love you?”

Tonight, I leave you ladies with one of my favorite new songs, "So Amazing" . Check it out below this post. This song just makes me feel good about loving GodJ Let me know your thoughts. Goodnight.

KPA