His Space

Since starting this blog, I’ve been asked several times by women how did I get started with writing the blog (on this particular topic), and how do I know that this is what God wants me to do? Well, for a while, I couldn’t put into words the answer to those questions. It was as if the answer was tucked away in my heart somewhere, but I couldn’t get it out of hiding to explain.

I thought about where my thinking and focus was a year and a half ago in comparison to where it is now. Over a year ago, I prayed and asked God to use me for something special; to use my passion and talent for writing to glorify Him. But the problem was that I was not in His space. By this I mean, that the things of the world {money, cars, job, Facebook, drama, life’s stresses, etc.} were consuming my thoughts more than the word of God. I was clearly consumed with worldly things. First John 2: 15-16, “Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.” I couldn't’ grasp why God wasn’t answering my prayer. I thought, “I’m praying daily to be used by you. What am I doing wrong?” It was simple; I was not fully in His will. I was going to church consistently, reading my bible, but at the end of the day, I was still trying to be in two places at one time. (Or in biblical terms), I was trying to serve two masters. “No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon,” (Math 6:24).

There came a time in my Christian life where I had to choose: serve God wholeheartedly or be consumed with the things of the world. And for me, this was one of those sit-down moments. I had to make the decision to remove certain people out of my life, refrain from going to certain places, participating in certain activities, treat people better, change the way I presented myself, and spend more intimate time with the Lord (this is where writing my love letters to God came in). More importantly, I had to clear these things out of my life, so that I could hear the Holy Spirit when He spoke to me. As we all know when your mind is cluttered with life’s daily stresses, it is difficult to hear your own thoughts, let alone discern God’s voice. And finally, I had to be prepared to trust and act; no matter how outrageous the Lord’s requests seemed when they arrived.

Now, a year and a half later, I still struggle with giving up a lot of things from my past. But, I have never felt more at peace. More and more everyday I am learning to discern God’s voice, instead of leaning on my own unstable emotions. I am only able to do this because I am building my own personal relationship with God. I am learning His desires for my life through His word, and I am able to trust in Him. As a result, it is easier to distinguish what He wants for me.

I include these words in my daily morning prayers, “Lord, please continue to rid me of myself, and fill me with your Holy Spirit.” I am seeking to remain in your space only.”

I pray this answers the question of how I got here,

KPA

Once raised by a Virtuous single mother, I am now a strong Virtuous, Fashionista, who fear’s the Lord, who’s best friend is the Lord, that waits on discernment from God, who is living for today, who is a woman of strength, that understands the power of my words, that is aware of God’s presence, is allowing my light to shine, whose growing to be more passionate about serving the Lord, who can listen without pride to constructive criticism, whose fear does not hold me back, who runs to the Lord first about everything, who strives to stay on God’s course, who is saved by the grace of God, who admits to being envious of others at times, who knows my worth, has a calming peace, who gives thanks daily, who wants to be a godly example to others, who is able to forgive my enemies, who has high expectations of me, who has been created in God’s own image, who lovingly submits to my spouse, who understands God's love, has an intimate relationship with God, supports Breast Cancer Awareness, with a family who honors me, Virtuous friends who love me, and with a giving spirit.